"I don't know which is scarier - To feel something or feel absolutely nothing."
Some days,
I feel everything at once.
Other days,
I feel nothing at all.
And I don't know what's worst:
Drowning beneath the waves
Or dying from the thirst.
By: (o.m)
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These feelings cling on to me like shadows, never leaving, always following. It is like a snap to the brain, suddenly feeling nothing at all after feeling so much before.
I don't know which is scarier. Those feelings or myself.
When I feel so much, I tend to share my feelings. And when I feel nothing, I'll get bored, utterly bored of the feelings and the people whom I wanted to share my feelings with.
I don't know which is scarier. People or myself. Or getting bored.
I fear.
From feeling so much to feeling nothing. From being compassionate to being heartless.
I don't know which is scarier. Heartless or myself. Or both.
I'm such a contradicting and confusing human being.
Unchangeable and Unstoppable.
I guess I just have to live with these feelings.
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xoxo, YH.
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