"We stopped checking for the monsters under our bed, when we realized they were in our head."
It is scary how my sleeping habits seems to change, slowly.
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When I was younger, I fear the monsters under my bed. I would always wrap myself from head to toe with my thick blanket. Even though I felt slight suffocation with beads of perspiration rolling off my skin, I would still hold tightly to the softness of my shield. Yet, I slept so well and peacefully with comfort.
As I got older, I don't fear the monsters under my bed anymore. But, I fear the monsters in my head. The monsters will keep me in a long bus ride with my thoughts. Sometimes I need to constantly battle with my thoughts. Sometimes I won, sometimes I lost. I lost my comfort zone, I couldn't fall asleep peacefully anymore.
It is scary.
How I've too much on my mind and all those thoughts will reflect in my slumber.
It is scary.
How I keep dreaming about you.
It is scary.
How I got pathetically betrayed by my comfort zone.
It is scary.
How I couldn't fall asleep like I used to.
It is scary.
How scary I've become.
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xoxo, YH.
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